Ugly Red

i spend hours in the shower

i spend hours at the sink

knowing i had no power

when i inhaled that salty drink

and as i wash under my fingernails

and tears wet my face

my mind is lingering in the details

of when we interlaced

i can't clean you from my body

and i can't clean you from my bed

my husk forever stained

with your ugly box-dye red